09-10-01

This has really become a nightly ritual for me. I have made time almost every single night since I started this e-journal to write an entry. Even if only a little time, I have stayed committed to it. That's a real challenge for me. I tend to finish creative projects in great, heaving bursts. I don't have nearly as much free time to dedicate to art as I want. So when I find a block of time available, I squeeze an intense amount of work out of it. And also, I'm impatient. I want to finish a project quickly and then move on to the next one. I enjoy the idea generation but then exhaust myself in the execution phase. And get bored quickly. Well, you know how it is. It's easy to get lazy. To give in to mundane things like television and dining and work and illegal substances. It takes a lot of willpower to stick with an art project. Well, I'm not a full-time artist, a starving artist. I'm just a guy with a job who tries to do art. Maybe, maybe not. Maybe I'm an artist who is forced to have a job. No. Who feels forced to have a job. To the point, I'm proud of myself. It's really hard work to stick with it. I wish everyone had the time to work on creative projects. I hate work for what it does to everyone…as well as myself.

Every song that sells out to a commercial is tainted. Forever tainted. When you remember it, it will never be that same art object/song. It has crossed over into commodity. As Oscar Wilde said, "All art in inherently useless." I'm quoting from memory, I might be slightly off in the words, but that was his meaning. That defines the border between commercial product (manufactured object for sale - designed) from art.

I really gotta say, The Man Show on comedy central is an evil, nazi show. It's so sickeningly sexist and proud of its sexism that it makes me want to puke.

Oh, my clothing co-conspirators selected a name for our company. Don't tell anyone, but the name we picked is MildMannered. I think it's a rockin' name. Tell me what you think via email, if you get a minute. So now we're onto the next step.

I'm wiped. Good-night.