09-05-01

job vs. love

Limp down sale same ready for get that gun please soften the hard edge that destroys good karma center self against chaos insanity dis-senility inner anger of others ruining destroying fear enacting selfish must separate escape self yielding money corrupting urging forward the inevitable end is the same death money is not relevant inner peace pride in good life if anything is worth anything would probably be the best thing to go with although deep down I anger at the fact that we do have to go it is so hard to accept end of self to become Zen I would love hard to let go of all the earthly things how not to be angered by the injustice how can one balance desire to "get ahead" ambition whatever your inner goals are with letting go of all desire who am I kidding I'm not even close to a noble desire I just can't live up to my ideals I whine like a child about it but I won't let go of my immoral job