11-29-01

Eventually, he calmed down and his memory seemed to come back. My brother and I went to see him, in his room. And he seemed somewhat angrier than before. Like he was somehow. On edge. Overly-energetic. So we don't see him too many times when he's in the hospital. My brother and I. But when he comes out, it's still kind of weird. Like he's grumpier than before. Over the course of the next few months it sort of stayed the same. Although I think I might've been in college at this point. It's all a little hazy in my memory. It's always been hazy. I feel like high school and before high school is shrouded by a grid. A dullness grid. That's how I remember it. A boredom grid. My brother also has a grid over his memory, but it's a different one than mine. My brother was stuck at home, still in high school, having to deal with my excessively grumpy father. Apparently they had a lot of fights. I was away at college.

My brother said he never hit him, but he chased him around the house once because he was mad at him. I don't know if that's true or not. But Abraham did say that my father never hit him. But there was some serious bad blood started between my brother and my father during that time. I think Abraham grew to hate our father at that time.

Now eventually, they take my father off this medication he was on from on, I believe it was Valium. If my memory is right, my mother told me it was Valium. And my father actually started to calm down and relax. He became back to his previous temperment, or at least close to it. Apparently, he had been having a reaction to the medication. It was having the reverse effect that it has on the majority of people (it relaxes you) it affected his body chemistry to become over-stimulated. And also my father began to have a kidney failure. That also had an effect on his body chemistry. He went through a kidney transplant, and then his personality mellowed out just a bit more.

At least, that is my impression. Soon, my brother goes to college. He was a freshman, and I was senior. To be continued.